Last night was heavy…or should I say – light?
After falling asleep at around 10 and waking up again at 1 or 1:30, I lay awake for HOURS with realization after realization crashing over me, and creative ideas pulsing through my brain like a bright, sparkly river.
First, I realized that I really am at a point where I believe that total abundance and big-time wealth is my birthright. As in, I believe it with all of my being – which is pretty awesome! (And in case you didn’t know, it’s your birthright, too!).
See, my two companies (The Girl’s Guide to Web Design and Better Than Chocolate Web & Branding) are doing well. I cracked the six-figure mark in 2011, and that was extremely exciting. But I’ve always had this deep inner knowing that I’m destined to help more people, and experience more richness (in every sense of the word).
So as I lay there in bed, I asked to know what is holding me back from experiencing total abundance with what I’m creating in the world. Surprisingly enough, it came to me immediately: it’s all about Thesis – the WordPress framework that I teach to women in my online course.
Thesis has been the factor that’s holding me back, because DIYThemes is not an energetic match with my greater life purpose! (And yes, you have one of those too!).
How funny that after preaching about “square peg, round hole” so much, I now see that I have a glaring example of it at the very core of my own business. Gotta love how that works. :P
Side note: It seems that when I am in the alpha state, I have access to answers quite readily now. It’s pretty cool!
So anyway…back to my story. As soon as it dawned on me that it’s Thesis that’s the problem, I knew exactly what I had to do. One of my business contacts, whom I respect greatly and whom I consider an all-around great guy, recently suggested to me that I create my own premium theme/framework for the students of The Girl’s Guide to Web Design.
It’s an idea that I’d toyed with before, but you know…life got in the way.
Now, however, it seems like the most totally obvious and wonderful plan in the world.
“Now is the time,” I realized.
And I launched into a series of reveries about what this theme/framework would be all about, and about my life with Justin, supported by the very important work of helping even more women get their ideas out into the world, become more of themselves, and express themselves creatively.
And now it’s happening. It must happen. It will. And I couldn’t be happier about it.
So, watch this space for news on what I’m creating. It’s going to be paradigm-busting, and empowering, and totally magnificent. And I sincerely hope it will be the answer to all your prayers when it comes to making all your dearest dreams and aspirations a reality online. :)
But wait – there’s more 12/12/12 adventure to share!
Shortly after my business epiphany, I also had a CRAZY experience involving suddenly feeling these vibrations in my ears building – like a frequency getting higher and higher. I began to feel very light in my body – as thought my physical self was reduced to a shell, and I was only partially inside it.
I started to see very beautiful, meticulously shaped visions of tone-on-tone patterns with my eyes closed. The patterns were kind of like damask…flowers and swirls, kaleidoscope-esque. They were radiating a feeling of pure, unconditional love.
I felt myself becoming one with them and leaving my body, and I tried not to be afraid, but I was flushed and cold at the same time, and I felt a pull to the patterns and away from my “self”, so it was definitely a little scary. Eventually I opened my eyes, because it was so intense, and it went away.
It happened again maybe half an hour later, and I kind of called myself back into my body again to stop it.
I guess I eventually fell asleep.
I don’t pretend to understand everything that happened to me last night, but I am so, so grateful for the insights and awareness that came to me as a result of 12/12/12.
Now, it’s time to act!